RELIEVED.

I'm actually content with how my room is, but I can tell that a week from now, I'm going to be bothered by it. As for now, though, I'm fairly happy and glad that all the clutter is gone! Yay! I feel so obssessively compulsive again. Oh wait, that's not a good thing, is it? That doesn't matter because I feel clean and undirty.

That's really all I wanted to say.
As for mood: I'm pretty fine. Not totally my happy self, but fine. Okay. I'm okay. The reasons shall remain unsaid to the entire world, for it's my decision of who and what shall be spoken of the subject. Let's just say that everything has been said to the intended persons and that's all that should be said, if you're so curious. You cat.

OH! PICTURES! I love that I was the person to take the pictures of the group, ON STAGE. It feels as if you could only view the pictures from me because they're so exclusive, you know what I mean? HAHA.

Personally, this one is my favourite of all. This one, I really love because the audience WATCHED me take this picture. And that Shannel's the only one in red.


Well, that's all for now.
Have a lovely evening/morning.
Cheers xoxo.

Coming home too early.

I'm a bit aggravated, to be perfectly honest.
Going home earlier than usual is throwing me off.
Usually, I would be at Mabuhay, but now that PCN's over,
I have no choice, but to go home early.
Next week, though, I'm TOTALLY looking forward to practice.

This is an example of what happens if I routinely came home early:


I don't think you'd want that.
Have a lovely morning.
Cheers xoxo.

Sat, 21 Mar. 2009.

WAS THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE SO FAR.

Pilipino Cultural Night was such a success to me and I'm so proud of everyone in Mabuhay. I love every single one of them, ESPECIALLY Shannel, Janine, Jayvee, Reyna, Fritz, Rezza, Nikki, and Christian. I'm extremely proud of Jayvee and Josh. All of the hardship of PCN paid off to an extent that I owe MORE time to the club. Now I'm looking forward to Battle of the Tribes and Multicultural. I am DEFINITELY joining next year, for sure.

I told everyone that when I get excited, I gag a lot. I GAGGED SO MUCH. I'm a bit gloomy, though. I've loved every single practice and going home late at night. Mabuhay is, like, my second family. I could always go to them for help with things and I could always just talk to them and have fun. Okay, enough of them cheesies.

During the last week of practice, the Mabuhay food: Mexican chips. Everyone went bonkers for it. Seriously, though, I did, too. WITH THE CHILI. Yum. We had to be serious about practice, though. To be honest, I don't think any of us were being serious, but everything's all good now. My parents finally see why I stayed out so late. The show definitely showed them and I'm glad that they saw it.

During the show, I was frustrated with my hair, so I just made it look like eh. It was up, then down, then up, then down, then up. And it's still up right now. Yes, I slept with my bun on, haha. While play was going on, me and Fritz were reciting every line. It was so funny because some people were watching us do that and I felt like bursting into laughter with him. And I kept on gagging. I was extremely excited.

During Barrio suite, I kept thinking, "This is it. It cannot be over. Make it longer.". I didn't want it all to end. PCN preparation is the best. I love it so much. It's hell, but it's something that I love to death. Damn.

Denny's was interesting. Danreb was my kuya! Yay! He knows Jeno, which isn't quite suprising because it was as if everyone in the world knew Jeno. I found out that he was quite popular. Haha, what a loser. There was signing of programs and fullness. Sigh. I really don't want this to end. I know that there's more, but I just love PCN prep. The anger and the tears and the drowsyness makes it all feel authentic.

OMG, Jesierose took me home at, like, 2am. We talked in her car for 10 mins. until I got out when it rained harder. Then, a minute after I got inside, HER CAR WOULDN'T START. She doorbelled to tell me that. OHNO, POOR JESIE. My uncle had to jumpstart it in the rain, which was scary because he could get electricuted. The whole time, she was scared, but I knew that it would start. Karma, baby, karma. Beforehand, she dropped off Andrea and Fritz and then me. I wanted her to drop me off last because I wanted to talk to her about something.

All I could say that there was one thing that I regretted last night (or this morning).

I HAVE A FEW PICTURES.
But I'm going to upload them later. I'm still a bit tired.

Have a lovely day.
Cheers xoxo.

3 more days until...

PILIPINO CULTURAL NIGHT.

I feel so guilty because all of the officers and Ms. Biol are going loco because everyone in the club is not being totally serious. It kills me, but it'll all be worth it after Saturday. I've even been going home later than usual, but it's all good. My parents understand how hard I'm working (no, they don't.) and how much I love Mabuhay (sure.). Sigh. I'm actually okay with everything, besides the fact that sometimes projects and homework gets in the way. I don't mind going home late. But I hate the fact that my parents don't like picking me up at night. It's all good, though.

I presented my mythology project on Hercules today. I BOMBED THAT SHIT. I said "like" after EVERY SINGLE WORD. And I mumbled a lot. OMG, I BOMBED IT. At least I don't have homework for English for the rest of the week. SLICK.

HAHAHAHA, Jayvee and Janine came over to my house today because Janine needed pictures from my camera and to work on the program. My cat loves Janine, but Jayvee is scared of him. I couldn't stop laughing. And Knives kept coming inside Jeno's room because of Janine. When friends come over, I love their reactions to what's inside something that they've seen several times. It was fun bringing them inside Jeno's room.

I think I've gotten messier this past year. Things in my bookbag are scattered and my room looks like a freaking hurricane passed by. And I don't know, I feel so frustrated with myself right now. My room is DRIVING ME CRAZY.
I want to clean it up so bad, but I don't have the time to. It sucks. I want to move everything that ISN'T mine somewhere else. My mommy tells me how dirty my room is, but she's the one that put everything from the moving truck under my bed.
I'M GOING INSANE.
My OCD may even be going away, maybe.
Or my OCD is the cause of the insanity.
Freaking Hera.

Have a lovely evening.
Cheers. xoxo.

Today was amazing. Period.

I think I'll stop with the song title titles.

BECAUSE,

TODAY WAS AMAZING. PERIOD.

My little brother tagged along in the last Mabuhay Saturday practice. I'm glad that he came, but at the same time, it makes me want to turn him into a social butterfly. He's so shy! I can't help but be annoyed. Haha. That was a mean thing to say.

Anyways, I had such a great time for many reasons, but there's this particualr reason. I don't really want to say, but when I look back at this, I'll pretty much know why.

Sorry for being so vague.

TODAY WAS AMAZING PERIOD.

P.S. PCN = NEXT FREAKING SATURDAY.

Your Ex-Lover Is Dead.

Wow, March already?

I think I'll go with Stars this month.

TOMORROW IS JACKIE CHEN'S BIRTHDAY. LOL, what a loser; 15 already? I'm going to have to wait 7 more months. Tomorrow would be March 4th, and my birthday is exactly 7 months after. Tbh, I can't wait. Even though I hate feeling old, I hate the feeling of being younger, age-wise. Age is actually a freaky thing. During my trip to San Diego about 2 weeks ago, I couldn't stop thinking about how the twins, Simone and Jacob are so grown up now. I remember having Christmases with them when they were still in their little carrier thingies and them having no idea that they're too young to know it's even Christmas. They're so grown! I can't believe it and they've only been on the planet for, what, 7 years? I hate that sometimes we grow up fast and that people actually like that type of thing: growing up. It's so stupid. I'd rather not know anything and everything would be okay because I'm inexperienced. I don't know. Maybe I'm just afraid. Those kids have me thinking.

On a newer note, PCN IS ALMOST HERE. It's in about 2 weeks and I really need to start memorising my lines, or I'll look so dumb on stage. I'm a bit nervous, but it isn't the first time I have performed in front of a big mess of people. There was the Charity Event, but I think this is different. I'm going to be onstage for at least half of the whole show; or even more. But yeah, since it's crunch time, I think that means less "me-time", but I'm perfectly fine with that.

"You're just as brown as the rest of us." I love that line, for some reason.

Have a lovely evening.
Cheers xoxo.